Augh

"I think i need an explanation because you're messing up my perception.
Was it all just an illusion? Think you need to wake me up.
Hallucination. I can't see past the lines.
Hallucinations. Is what I'm witnessing tonight"
-Myah Marie

Why is it that I keep having these conflicting emotions? It's like one moment, I feel like the world is wonderful and the next moment, I just want to get away from it all.
and no. I am not bi-polar. >_>;

Boo for the end of spring break but yay for the return of internet.

Edit: I know I haven't updated myself with the status of my ochem goal.
Number of lectures paid completely attention in: 10
Number of lectures I zoned out within the last 30 min: 2
Number of lectures didn't show up: 3 >_>;;
Lectures total so far: 15
Lectures remaining: 12 (?)

JIA YOU!

Amazing

It's SO amazing to see people who have the heart and compassion to adopt a baby girl from China.

The thought of adopting a baby from China has usually been in the back of my mind. It was only after watching that documentary on female babies in China that made me really want to considering doing something like that in the future. To think of how the sex ratio in China is highly skewed towards the males is really shocking and to imagine how things will turn out for those males, or just the Chinese society as a whole worries me.
If I were to adopt a baby girl though, I would want to make sure she would be totally immersed in Chinese culture and at least know the language so if she were to ever come back to China, she would know how to communicate to the people who took care of her in the orphanage.

Okay. Yeah. looking way too far into the future but i'm just saying..

Adopting a child is one thing but to adopt a child from another country is just extraordinary. It takes SO much time for a couple get through the whole process of obtaining a child and it just really shows how people can be so compassionate to want to take care of a child who has been through so much as a baby.

eh

I've been feeling so lost through out these past couple of days and it's hard because nobody has been available.
GAH. hfSIDFHDSIFH
I suppose the best way to solve this is to talk it out

Practices

For the benefit of my body, here are things that I've always wanted to do:

1) Completely cover lotion all over body. I've noticed that there are specific areas on the upper part of my arm that is dry and bumpy. I feel like it's grown over the course of time (I blame this on Dragonboat because I never noticed it until then)

2) "detoxify body", Eating vegetables and fruits for the WHOLE day. I don't know if I can do this but I really want to. I feel like my digestive system is crappy because a majority of the food i regularly consume is protein and carbs. ..

3) Drink a LOT of water. I used to do this in high school but i've stopped. I should start again.

4) Put SPF on my face everyday. I managed to be able to do it for 70% of the time I go outside but I feel like it should be better.

Anyone want to join me??

Maybe I'm just in a phase again but

I love it when I listen to something that incorporates hip hop and another genre together. In high school, I remember being in this hugeeeeeee Fort minor/Linkin Park/Handsome Boy Modeling School phase and it really struck out to me because it practically mixed rock and hip hop together. (Btw, you may think I'm a nerd but I LOVE the lyrics in H!-Vl8tage. Look it up and you'll see what i mean.)

Reanimation was my favorite CD. <3 It was in constant repeat.

Anyways, the reason why I mention this is because I was watching ABDC the other day and I LOVED "Orquestra" by Quest (MYGOD. SO. HOT. AHHH.). It sent shivers up my spine and it seriously felt like an eyegasm+eargasm. Recently, I've been listening to other music, such as Paul Dateh and Jedi Mind Tricks and gosh...So amazing.

Man. It sure sucks to go back to SF by yourself when it's raining. *sigh*.

I want a panda hat ^^.