So sorry.

I don't know how long it till take for you until you will read this. Please keep in mind that whatever I say is not intended to make you feel worse. In fact, that's not what I want at all. Please don't ever think that you weren't good enough because you were. We had our share of good times and bad times. It had came to a point where just being with each other was just not as good as before. There were days where I was just fed up with the things you do, or rather the way I acted towards you. And yet, I was scared of hurting you. I didn't to practically just leave you out of no where because you were my best friend. I was practically your support system when no one else was there and I still am...

..It'll just be different now.

I'm sorry about everything that has happened within these past months. I feel like a bitch for doing this to you but I realize it would've done both of us more harm if it went any longer. I was so hesitant to tell this to anyone else because I felt I was going to get judged for it.
It started way before the end of summer. It was practically during Spring semester but I never realized the seriousness of it. Looking back, I should've told you about this way in the beginning, but then again..I only thought of it as a minor thing.

When you told me not to leave last night I really didn't want to because I knew how much it hurt you. But I had to do it before anything got worse..and I'm sorry about that.

Hah. I can't believe three years have already passed. It seemed just like yesterday when it was Autumn Ball and we were competiting against each other to see who was better in Kirby's Avalanche in the ASB room. Time sure flies. Truth to be told, I had a pretty shitty day on our supposed anniversary date. I woke up extremely late to class that was like 15643132148 miles away from the apartment and I had to run my butt to turn in my project. I felt extremely gross from the 3 hours of sleep and the fact that my body was covered in sweat and 'that time of the month' came in the worst possible way. I got back my paper from Asian Studies that wasn't that great and I was reminded once again of how I never have the time to do any studying. The worst of it was that I had no one to tell about it. It would've been extremely awkward to tell it to those that were extremely close to me in the area. I felt like I just had to carry on through the day and try to forget about it.

Once again..I don't want you to feel worse because of this. I just need you to understand.
I don't want you to be any more pessimistic that you already are. It hurts me to see you act that way.
It will take some time. But for now, please forgive me..