Remember Remember the 8th of November

*Will insert picture later*.
Woke up at 5:30am. Got everything ready for the big day. Got there and set up things as usual, re-unioned with a couple of Gal and AWATers which was really nice but I didn't really get to catch up with as many people as I wanted due to racing/drumming in all the CalDB heats (YEAH BITCHES.) Risked falling off the boat during the men's semi final when the drum was extremely loose and fell onto row 1. I also got 2 two cuts-a massive one on my finger and another one on my toe as well as two huge ass bruises on my leg(will post up the damages later) from drumming.
We may have won hardware but I think the experience that our boat shared together was even more momentous.

Three years. I have been on this team for three years and we've grown up SO much together. To be honest, I came to Cal DB with the intention that I was there to just paddle and not have such an experience as we have all gone through. However, I was wrong. Those people who were there at that last college cup two years knew what was at stake and almost 90% of those people probably considered quitting right then and there but for some reason, decided to stick with it. More people came along, realized our passion of how badly we wanted it and may have left but still bleed with us along the way. Right after that last heat, I started to break down like no other (sorry Zack, Jay, Vincent, Valerie and Mary ><) because for a moment, I thought that this was it for Cal, that we had the best of the old and new combined together and our season was over. That race felt like a fight for our lives. Through out that whole course, flashes of what we all had gone through raced through my mind, from all those water practices, races that led up to this moment and of course, land training. Granted, I was tired from yelling and falling on my butt after Cal2's final heat, right before Cal1 but that pain was pushed aside because I knew everyone else wanted to gun for it. Thinking back to that moment still brings tears to my eyes but when I realize that I was wrong. CalDB is NOT done. Although I may still have one or possibly two more College races left in me, I realize that the team will never face its 'final race' because of all the new and amazing talent (man. I feel old -_-) on the team. We may aim for College race or any other races in the future but it's not the end yet. It's never the end.
Once a CalDBer, Always a CalDBer. We always mention that we're a family after every race and profess our love for CaldB and each other and I don't think any other team really has that like us.

No other DB team is willing to stuff 8-9 people in a car after practice because they don't want to leave anyone behind.
No other DB team is willing to call themselves stupid even though they're clearly not.....individually.
No other DB team will have so many ridiculous nicknames for each other as we have.
No other DB team can possibly have as much or more fun than us.
No other DB team can facebook SPAM as much as us.
No other DB team has as much HEART as us.
No other DB team has as much PASSION as us.
No other DB team can bleed BLUE AND GOLD as much as us.

So for those who have understood me through out this post and has (or is still.. ><) shed the same amount of tears, sweat and pain as I have, I thank you.
Because of you, you make me look forward to improve every step of the way and every inch on the boat. You make me want to keep fighting and prove to the other teams that we ARE the team to watch out for.


For those who may not have yet experienced this yet, I thank you as well.
It didn't really commit to the team until the second semester of my freshman year because I was still pretty new, didn't know anyone else around me and it felt like everyone already knew each other. However, becoming captain at a young age didn't cause me to become committed, it may have helped but it was really seeing all those familiar faces come to practice week after week and realizing that they want to do well made want to work hard with them.
You are the future of this team and like everyone else has mentioned it before, it's upon us now to carry the legacy on.

I Love You CalDB.
Now it's time to sleep.

Ugh.

Woke up relatively early for some reason and realized that there was no point in doing so since practice didn't start until 12. Went to Lake Merced around 11:30 to watch other teams practice and turn in the waiver while waiting for everyone else to come. Got disturbed/disgusted seeing something and which still shocks (for a lack of any better word) me whenever I think of it now...ugh.
Had practice. Went home and allowed the officers to come and get ready for the pre-race dinner. Since our menu was a lot simpler, we managed to make food a lot faster, even though we ran out of pasta sauce very quickly=|. Our team started to draw various posters for each boat, such as Cal1,Cal2, Hotties and of course. Team Stupid (as you can see above). I must say that team stupid is quite dumb but entertaining. After various moments of drawing sillouettes, kissing the poster boards, painting finger/toenails and massaging each other, it was time for everyone to go home. Today was such a long day -_-.


One more day. I want to cherish each moment as much as I can.

Something new.

Let's try something for a change.
I haven't taken pictures in a LONG time..
SO,everyday I'm going to simply recap what has happened through out the day and try to associate a picture to it.
..or at least try to. lol.

So let's start with here...
Today I woke up with the intention to go to Bio because I started to feel annoyed and guilty for not showing up. I told myself that I was going to put it my all in terms of learning the material for the last section of bio1a but I ended up falling back to sleep -_-. Instead of woke up to Anatomy and found that it was raining. Went to go pick up my rembursement check as well as order my bio reader (again.) on my way to class. Anatomy class was pretty much the same as usual: Phil and I going online, chatting to each other even though we're sitting right next to each other. After anatomy class, I went to 131A to listen to a pediatrician which really caught my attention. He was one of the few doctors who completely and enthusiastically enjoyed being a pediatrician. It's been a while since i've heard of good things for being a pediatrician, since most people i've met have claimed that most pediatricians tend to be more depressed out of all other doctor professions ( i don't remember where I got that from ). After class, I went back home to go change clothes and shoes and then headed out with Jasmina to make copies of the waivers, obtain poster paper and markers. We then met up with Walex and Luke to go to a costco run, which took a little longer than usual because I think they rearranged most of the items there. We bought enough items that hit RIGHT ON our projected budget, which was awesome. Went back to my apt and found that my dad was waiting for me to go back to SF. Went home with a bunch of DB stuff and now I'm here!

So you might be wondering why I posted the picture of a sweatshirt that says 'GO BEARS OR GO HOME'. Well, that's our new CalDB sweatshirt which are extremely awesome. While it's a bit big on me, I enjoy wearing it. Today I saw 3 other people with the same sweatshirt and I thought how crazy it was to see that. Despite midterms and the usual school crap, it makes me happy to see everyone on the team being so pumped up for the upcoming race (based upon the facebook spammage). Seeing Yuan's videos really cheer me up and make me reminisce of those times. <3 Seeing that there's only two days left until the big day, part of me is excited and yet the other part of me wishes that there was still time left to anticipate for this event.

Anyways, it's time for me to go eat hotpot. YAY!

everything is falling apart and it feels like I'm trying to hold on to the remaining pieces

Angel on my shoulder but a devil in my head..

I can't stop listening to this song! ahhh.
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Rain rain...

It's been a while since it has rained this hard. =|. It really makes me not want to go to class at all for the whole day and just stay put.

Seeing that I haven't written here in a while, you'd figure that I'd have something to really post here about but to be honest, it's really hard to update when you don't have anything to rant about. haha. Things have been quite busy, though I don't really know why thats the case seeing that I'm taking a break from APO this semester. I must say though, taking a break from APO feels like my circle of friends has been limited now that I no longer go to PRs or CMs or that kind of sort and sometimes, I kind of miss it despite all everything feels so repetitive now. Anyways, I guess I could just list off anything new that's happened so far

1) Pretty and Fatty make me happy. =) Whenever I see them ,my moods suddenly get lifted up and I feel a whole lot more at ease. For those who may not know who pretty and fatty is,, they are these two kittens that were found downstairs Eric's apartment that probably were abandoned. We started to take care of them by giving them canned food and eventually brought them up. When we first met them, one of the cats was extremely social and the other was very shy. We decided to name the social cat, "fatty" because she gobbled up all the food we gave her in the beginning. We named the other cat pretty because her long grey+brown and white coat and blue green eyes just made her look so pretty. Originally, I thought fatty was a boy because she seemed to be extremely adventurous and protective of her sister but it turned out that both of them are girls. We've been trying to find people who would be interested in owning the kittens but so far, nobody has really committed to it. While they can't really stay here for any much longer, I really hope there was some way that they could. =| I will post up pictures of the cats in the near future.

2) I can't say how proud I am to see how CalDB is becoming where it is now. Enough said. However, it seems like everyone has been getting sick (including me) so I hope we start to get better before race day. =|

3) Taking Bio+LAB, anatomy and physics together sucks. In fact, last week sucked with having 2 midterms and a lab quiz (that practically feels like a midterm) while being sick and covered with random flea bites. Now that that round of midterms are over, I feel so much more at ease. .(...and as of now, I have decided not to go to physics just because it's raining SUPER HARD...chances are, I probably wouldn't have paid attention anyways..)

4) Lately, I've been trying to looking some study abroad programs, particularly in Asia that deals with either learning Chinese or TCM. Things haven't been going so well just because applications haven't been sent out. However, there is this one program that I'm interested in where it consists of doing HIV research in China and working with a MCB faculty during the spring to prepare for it. However, I honestly don't know if I could get it just because I feel like my grades aren't good enough and I've been hesitant to ask people for letters of rec now.

5) I have an awesome boyfriend and I'm very glad I get the chance to spend time with him through the ups and downs of our relationship =) (....and let me practically live here.... -_-.... )

New year, New decade, New start

As the end of summer approaches, I am somewhat haunted by the idea of becoming a junior in college as well as becoming twenty years old. o_o.

When you're a kid, you hardly even think of the idea of becoming older. You assume that everything is going to be the same, where you'll always have the same group of friends, the same set of goals. The only concerns that would probably come to your head would be whether you can beat that gym leader with that certain level with your Pokemon or when recess will come. Whenever I see my sister, I'm often reminded of how simple minded she can be. She act like it's still okay to talk incorherently or jump around all over the house and as much as I yell at her to calm down, I realized there was a point where I was like that as well.

Sheesh. I feel like an old person reminscing these things.

Anyways, with a new school year ahead, it's time to buckle down and start getting serious! o_o

New school year resolutions

1) Resume that regime of going to the library every school day to study.

2) ATTEND CLASS!

3) Research med schools

4)Look up Summer abroad

5) Raise that GPA. x_x

6) Prep for MCATS

7)Don't stress out. too much.

8) Paddle and exercise hard for CalDB <3

9) Stop bitching around and get shit done.

10) Smile and try to have fun. =)