Stuck

I'm caught between trying to do something new, returning to the old + the familar or just staying where I am right now.

Sorry for being so vague. Sometimes, it's really hard to decide between something you've been wanting to do for a long time and something you're obligated to do for a while. =/

Gah!

Sorry for not updating. I've been putting it off lately. =/ Here are some random updates:

1) I hate rain.

2) I hate windy rain

3) I hate random rain.

Yes. As you can tell. I hate rain. It's nice when I'm INSIDE but not when I have to walk to class. I also realized that my umbrella and rainboots failed on me. My umbrella rusted during the break (I guess it's partially my fault for forgetting to let it dry out) and broke and my rainboots have a leak in them. -________-

Other updates..

-I'm so scared for physics. Especially seeing how my GSI is so nonchalant about things.

-I've been decorating my room with pictures! I have also made a bigger DB shrine full of pictures. bwhahah. It's still a work in progress

-Happy 1 Year Anniversary! ICE CREAAAMMMMM

- I don't like pull ups. But they must be done.

-Mao is fun. Same as Pandemic.

-I really like cheeseboard pizza with tomato

-I cut a guys (ED) hair for the first time!

-I'm still really sore from land workout and fitness test. I also realized how nice it is to listen to music when you're sitting against the wall, especially when it's "Get Low". Brings me back to those days when I used to play Volleyball at the Richmond Rec and had to do wall sits for ETERNITY. -_-

-The story of Yang Gui Fei and the fall of the Tang Dynasty makes me feel sad and think that Emperor Zuanzong was a pussy towards the end of his rule. I'm supposed to write a response about it but of course, I can't mention those thoughts of him on paper and turn it in to the professor... http://china-empire.blogspot.com/2005/10/yang-concubine-one-of-four-beauties-of.html

I don't want school to start

So normally, I usually look forward to going back to school because the winter break is usually just way too long for me but I think this break was different in a sense that I took the time to spend time with my parents and sister, which was nice.

Sigh. I already miss winter break -_-.

Now that the semester is starting anew, I have a couple of things that I need to start doing and change. It will be hard but I hope it will pay off in the end

High school doesn't mean shit.

With regards to the SFUSD, the rank of your high school doesn't mean shit. It's how much YOU were willing to bust your ass to get into that university during high school and even then, just because you go to Cal doesn't necessarily mean that you're a fucking genius.

Don't say shit that a person could have lived if they had 'studied harder' and got into a better high school from there. Like I said before, the school you go into doesn't mean anything. It's how much you're willing to use the resources around you to get to where you want to go. Claiming that a school is better because of their teachers or resources is one thing. Claiming that all the students from a school are SMARTER just because of its NAME is another.

Jennifer Woo:

who cares about high school now that you're in college.

and even then as long as you're fine with whatever you're doing that thats okay

Florence

if you said that when _____ was around, i think her expression would be quite sour

she's still very into the whole high school thing

Jennifer Woo

well whatever. we go to the same school now

BITCHES

gal or lowell. Doesn't mean ANYTHING.

Florence: rofl

Bitch.

I fucking hate ignorance.

(I apologize for my ranting/swearing. Just had to get some steam out. )

Do what you love or do what you have to do?

Heres something that I've been thinking about for a while..

Some people tend to choose to engage in extracurricular activities because they want to and other people choose to do them because they 'have' to.

So, which one do you do?

Today, after working out at UCSF with Jhom, we were talking about our career plans and she brought up about how people gave her shit for choosing to work with kids at Cameron house every summer when she should be working at an internship or something that would boost her chances of getting into law school. It started to make me think about the idea of how many of us choose to do specific things JUST as a resume booster and I started to get frustrated over it.

In high school, I used to get really frustrated when someone wanted to run for asb or school office just because it would 'look good on their college apps' instead of choosing to run because they think it would make a difference. I guess it's really hard to say because everyone is striving to be noticed and to stand apart but I guess what gets me is that it's not fair for person A, who dedicates their time to something they find meaningful and worthwhile to get looked down upon compared to person B who just randomly chose to do that job just so they can get noticed.

I find that college extracurriculars are different now compared to high school. In high school, you can get a teacher who can write a recommendation upon how hard you've worked for that specific club. Perhaps it really depends on the specific club at Cal, but I'm sure as hell that I won't be able to find a professor who can testify what I've done for calDB.

As much as I love committing to dragonboat, there are times where I wonder whether it is really worth my time 'professionally' or 'academically'. I'm sure it's going to look much better for a med school applicant to say that they've been..say President of AMSA compared to a CalDB captain for almost 3 years now and its frustrating to see that the application board probably would not take that work in consideration. Same goes for being on Pcomm and Excomm for APO. Those two things take a lot of time, especially pcomm and yet, how will that even be factored? Who can really testify what you've done other than your own peers?

Another reason why I mention this is because I've been trying to look for volunteering opportunities at the animal shelter or SPCA (would anybody like to join me? =) ) because I've been wanting to volunteer there for the longest time but haven't been able to because I was either too young and the place was too far to get to (it still is. Even the Berkeley shelter is still pretty far away. -_- ) . While I'm sure volunteering at a hospital would be nice, but if I don't find a volunteering opportunity that doesn't involve with working directly with patients or feels like i'm making an ACTUAL difference with the patient's life, I would MUCH rather work with sheltered animals than sit at an office filing my life away with medical documents (not saying that it's not a bad job but just..that not one of my preferred choices)...

But what gets me is that volunteering at the animal shelter probably wouldn't get any points compared to volunteering at the hospital, unless I decide to become a vet.

And yes. I know that you should do the things that you enjoy but..come on. I'm sure that many students at Berkeley know this and yet choose to slave themselves away just because their 'pride', what their parents tell them to or whatever. It's a fact that we know but sometimes, we just can't help ourselves from doing the opposite

SIGH.

Raining cats and dogs!

Yesterday I woke up for my dentist appointment. I met up with Tiff first before heading out because she had just finished her dentist appointment earlier and was near my house so we justwent to Chinatown together. It was quite funny hearing her story about how she called

multiple people by accident just to try to get to me (because her phone's screen is broken). lolol. Anyways, we took the 1 California together and MAN! For someone who used to take the 1 all the time to get to school, we haven't noticed how many different shops there are now on California street. Anyways, arrived in Chinatown and went to my dentist appointment. It was pretty quick. Yay for no cavities! We then met with one of Tiff's friends (quite a funny story with that..*cough*) and got pho, which was nice seeing that we used to get pho ALL THE TIME. Anyways, I had to meet up with my mom to get new contacts (YES). Turns out that the contacts that I had been were an extremely old brand, which was why I had a lot of problems with it. I then met up with Tiff again at Downtown and we shopped around for her boots. We got these REALLY cute pair of boots at ALDO that we kind of..uhh splurged but it's okay. We justified for it. haha.=P OH We went into Metropark and I found my minitrench coat that was on sale!!! BUT THERE WERE NO EXTRA SMALLS OR SMALLS IN IT! T_T. I checked online to see if they might have it but ITS SOLD OUT. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Q__Q. I knew I should have gotten it in Vegas when I had the chance. AHHHH

Today while I woke up for my morning run, I saw this middle aged Asian man dressed in your typical 'chinese grandpa clothing' with a hat, jacket, slacks and some loafers running. I thought he was in a hurry to catch the bus but it turned out that he was working out. It was an interesting site. But then again, when you think about it, what does a typical SF middle aged Chinese man dress in to work out anyways? Then ED came over and we hung out. YAY! =). We played a little big of Little Big Planet and then we went to the park that I usually run to and saw lots of doggies! It was pretty funny to watch because there were all these big dogs playing around with

the lady (I think she was a dog trainer) and there was this little tiny terrier playing along with them.

I guess you can't really see how big/many the dogs were there but looking at the terrier run and

try to play with them reminded me of myself. -_-. Story of my life. Sort of. It was really cute though.

After that we went to the Mission District to have some yummy paella and Shrimp + Spicy Potato tapas! yay! In the process, we saw a lot of dogs walking by. It was quite strange to see so many.

We then went on a random side trip to the SPCA for the hell of it and I am so impressed in how well their facility is kept, in comparison to the San Francisco shelter. The cats were SO adorable. We had such a hard time resisting from adopting them. and oh my god. One of the cats there was a Persian and looked/reminded me so much of my old cat, which made me slightly sad. There was also a himalayan cat that was so BEAUTIFUL right next to the Persian. SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. We also saw this cat that looked really cool. It was white with gray spots that were striped. It was like a triple feature cat or something! haha

Unfortunately, I didn't really find the dog section of the shelter as amazing as the cats, partly because I think there are less dogs around and there weren't as many staff attending to them (I guess there's not so much of a need). We saw these two dogs humping each other though. Quite an awkward site to catch. lulz.

Anyways, I wish I could adopt all the kitties/dogs and give them

a good home to stay in, especially the older cats. Now that I think about it, when I grow older and have the means of being able to take care of a pet by myself, I wouldn't mind adopting an older cat first. They're generally easier to take care of anyways. A while back, I was looking on givesmehope.com and there was a post of story about this 13 year old girl who chose to adopt the oldest cat in the shelter because she felt he deserved a second chance. I found that story to be extremely admirable. But yes. I would love to adopt pets. I don't know how many times I've wished that my grandfather would be alright with having a cat in our SF home, there's always

drama about my dad keeping fishes and they're not even that much of a disturbance.

SIGHHHHH After going to the SPCA, I'm really glad that fatty and pretty are still around and that the SF SPCA is so well kept, especially for them to have so much space for the cats to live in. I've been wanting to volunteer there for a while now but unless I start driving, I don't think I can really have the means of transportation to get there. The Berkeley SPCA currently do not accept any stray cats, which is very unfortunate and there are many shelters that will euthanize cats if they do not get adopted for a certain amount of time. =(. To think that pretty and fatty are safe together right now makes me really happy.

When I grow up I want a cat and a dog to live and play with each other. ^^

Maybe more. bwhah.

Black and Gold

If I ever had to choose one song to create a choreo to, it would definitely be "Black and Gold" by Sam Sparro. (Surprised?) Even from listening to that song multiple times while working forever 21 has not phased me out from straight up dancing around my room with that song. <3

His music video is so hot. and classy. yes. classy. *swooon* Too bad he's not interested in women though =(

Woke up today and played little big planet. Around 1:40, my mom started to rush me to get ready to head out for my sister's parent teacher conference because she said we were late. When we were right in front of the elementary school (good thing it's a block away), she realizes that she looked at her watch wrong and that we were an hour early. -__-. Fail.

Anyways, I listened in to my sister's conference and helped my mom a bit. Then went running again then watched some good eats episodes. I took a nap in the middle of it. Planning to head out to go get some dessert with Jhom and Justin later. yumyum.

Edit: Okay so normally I don't really like fanny pak but I will make another exception for them because their performance:

I also want to dance =(

WOBBUFFET HAT!

Even though it's been three years since high school graduation, I am so shocked at how different people are like now. I only recently found out that there's a girl I knew of as an acquaintance has recently become an import model...which I find to be very shocking. I will note that it makes me realize that makeup+photography skills really does wonders on a person in comparison to how they look like in real life. It's also strange to hear of random people you know hooking up all of a sudden or even, possibily having a BABY. Time sure flies and people sure do change.

I guess that could be said about myself as well.

Woke up, read a couple of chapters from 'bonk', ate some of the baked mac and cheese that i made last night (yumyum! will post up picture later), then went to the YMCA to work out. Browsed around Ross+rite aid +random stores on Geary afterwards and in the middle of it, I found a wobbuffet doll. haha =). I then picked up my sister from school and went back to play a little bit of Little Big Planet. Then I went to Hot pot. I'm slightly sad that there were no Octopii =(. We also went to My Favorite Cafe and I found out different ways how guys rank/check out girls.

I want a wobbuffet hat. hahahahah.

Another Year, Another Decade

In the past, I used to write in my xanga/livejournal about how the year was like and some numerology reports about the past and upcoming year. I stopped making new years resolutions because after some thought, they were just hopes and aspirations for the new year that I wished to attain but found that I hardly ever did. Slightly depressing, I know but I always found that the New years shouldn't be the sole reason for you to start making changes, but rather resolutions should just be formed whenever you want to improve yourself. I guess it's a day that gives you a chance to really think and define goals you would like to accomplish. Most of the resolutions that I have made in the past usually ranged within the same category: Academics, family life, and health. So I can't really think of anything new that I'd like to accomplish, except the following:

1) Find a summer internship/job that pays.

2) Start studying up for MCATS

3) Be a better influence towards my sister

4) Stop bitching around and finding excuses for things that I didn't end up doing.

5) Be able to perform 3 legit pull ups by myself. That's saying quite a bit, considering how I REALLY don't like pull ups. o_o.

6) Earn respect at College cup. All the blood, sweat and tears coming from this team through out the past three years HAS to come down to something worthwhile.

7) Grow taller. =) (What? I say that it can be attainable. harhar.)

Anyways, It's CRAZYYY how it's 2010. A decade has already passed! I still remember when it was New Years Eve on 2000 and I was sitting in my parents room watching the Ball drop at Times Square, wondering if there really would be a Y2K bug looming around.

Last night, I was at Justin's place celebrating the New years and was talking to Jhom about how crazy it would be to think about how we'll be 30 by the time 2020 comes along. GAH. ><; Real adults. For the time being, I'd like to take advantage of all the time we have being young. =)

20 Highlights of the year

1) NYC Trip

2)URAP position at the Spine Clinic in UCSF

3) Going into an OR and observing an Laminectomy

4) BLOCKLES & Plants vs. Zombies during finals in the spring semester.

5) PreMCB102 and MCB102. lulz.

6) B3P & Being on Excomm =)

7) The Establishment of the Kool Kids Klub B] yee yee.

8) Pretty and fatty s2

9) Wind Sprints. Oh god. How much I hate them so..

10) Getting sick & taking care of the sick

11) College cup: Particularly, almost getting knocked out of the boat during a heat.

12) WK reunion: giving the togepi banner to Chris. Oh How i miss you so, Togepi! s2

13) Sitting around in IB131, doing DB stuff while being surrounded by DB people, particularly listening to Phil make fun of Lewis. *awkward laugh*

14) Practically living at ED's place -___-;;;

15) Making many different kinds of cakes & pastries such as, Chocolate cake balls, Tiramisu, Pumpkin Pie, Mini Pumpkin pie bites, Cookies and Cheesecake.

16) Passing out Calendars on my birthday. Not really something I'd like to remember but it does stick out to me... What a bad day. >_>

17) Realizing how important sleep can be and how scary sleep deprivation really is.

18) Being able to get Muzz presale tickets within minutes of it being sold out. GG.

19) Playing Tekken 6. >:)

20) Going down to LA and having one of the best Christmas' with my family I've ever had in a long time. =)