This whole weekend has been an amazing way to sum up the past four years I've spent here at Cal. Meeting up with old APO friends, going to Linan's wedding, hanging out with awesome friends and most of all, watching CalDB kick butt at baby LB is much more than I can possibly ask for.

I really do miss paddling/racing. I thought I wouldn't cry at the last heat but once I felt the hugs, all the memories and experiences we've all been through came rushing all at once. I am so proud of you all. <3

Twas the Night before Long Beach

Twas the night before Long Beach

Not a CalDB soul was awake

except a little girl who secretly had mighty long reach

back and forth she ran through the room, as her mind ached

waivers, money, jerseys and car rides

anticipating for a shit-ton of surprises.

..

As much stress it brought, I miss it a ton <3

Lets go Cal Dragonboat. Show them who's the boss.

What a week

Monday:

Submerged a cockroach in ice water for 3 minutes. Decided to 'man' up and cut and remove the cockroach leg for lab. Then used the wooden end of a Q-tip to poke at the leg multiple times to measure the combined action potentials from the stimulus.

Tuesday:

Discussed about the movie, Kung Fu Hustle in Chinese Pop culture, particularly it's significance and how the movie has managed to appeal to people in HK, Mainland China as well as in America. Very interesting. Makes me happy to know that I've taken classes that I've always been interested in.

Wednesday:

Used forceps to pick at the wings of wild type and mutant fruit flies and stuck them onto a microscope slide usings nail polish and observed their taste preferences between Sucrose, Trelose and Caffeine. In the midst of picking them up, some of the flies flew away. Personally, that experience was much scarier than the cockroach lab. People brought in snacks and baked goods so everyone in lab got to eat in the meantime. Afterwards, went to Bears Lair with lab AND GSI and played "HELLOOOO CODY" and Kings Cup. MCB majors sure like to make rules incredibly hard for people to get. Got massively drunk from three beers. Walked around campus with le boy tipsy on a Wednesday afternoon. hehehe :)

Thursday:

Watched a baby come out of the mom's vagina from a documentary whilst eating......I don't want to have kids for a while now...

And that concludes my last week of undergrad classes. How eventful. I definitely will miss college. :)

Closure

It's interesting how someone you once trusted and cared so much could disappoint you SO much. It's really shocking and honestly, when I think back to it, its just disturbing...and WEIRD. I don't think I can ever see you in the same light when I once respected and constantly kept you in such a high regard and that makes it really sad. Never in my whole life have I ever experienced so much loss in trust for a person, and it's just. really. disheartening. :/. Sometime in the future, I really would like to try and fix things but it's just unfortunate how you just can't get over something like that.

Don't take it as a way that I'm jealous though. While I do miss what used to be, I thank you for all the experiences/lessons I've learned from being together. It's unfortunate how things didn't work out but I'm glad they didn't. I haven't been this happy in a long time and I hope you are too. Everyone has their flaws in relationships and it was just only a matter of time when it was just too much. As long as you don't go out of your way to make sure I see what you two are doing, I could care less and if you really like her as much (or more) as you once did with me, then I truly wish you the best. But if it's not...it'll just make me laugh at what a stupid decision you made. I hope you realize that not a lot of people are in support of what you've done but hey, if "your heart speaks to her" then do whatever the hell you want and fuck what everyone thinks.

It also amuses me to think that she's going to have this lingering thought that I was once there doing practically same.exact.thing. as you're doing right. now.

So really. Have fun with that. If she has any sort of heart/soul, that thought should and WILL torment and fester in her mind...and all I can do is just sit back and smile. :)

How does that feel now?

Leave the past behind.
Walk away when it's over and the heart breaks
..and the cracks begin to show.

New chapter

Just transfered the calDB listserve over to Sam. Ahhhhhhhh all this transferring power business is so relieving, yet so sad. It's like seeing your baby all grown up and going away for college! :*(

A chapter that I've been working on for the past 2-3 years has now closed and a new one has just begun. I'm excited but a little scared. :)

Making good progress with PT and my shoulder. I miss paddling and seeing everyone :|.

MCB133L Musings

Finished first out of everyone today. FUCK YEAH.

The people around my lab table really like to eat food and want to do the pho/sushi challenge
They also want to have a cooking competition in lab. We shall pipet food particles near e.coli and wait for them to incubate.

Found out that if you're in med school, are married to the someone in the same class as you and are applying for residency, you get automatic admission to which ever residential program your spouse is in.
New goal in life: Get into med school, marry someone smart.

LOL. justkidding. sort of.