eh

I've been feeling so lost through out these past couple of days and it's hard because nobody has been available.
GAH. hfSIDFHDSIFH
I suppose the best way to solve this is to talk it out

Practices

For the benefit of my body, here are things that I've always wanted to do:

1) Completely cover lotion all over body. I've noticed that there are specific areas on the upper part of my arm that is dry and bumpy. I feel like it's grown over the course of time (I blame this on Dragonboat because I never noticed it until then)

2) "detoxify body", Eating vegetables and fruits for the WHOLE day. I don't know if I can do this but I really want to. I feel like my digestive system is crappy because a majority of the food i regularly consume is protein and carbs. ..

3) Drink a LOT of water. I used to do this in high school but i've stopped. I should start again.

4) Put SPF on my face everyday. I managed to be able to do it for 70% of the time I go outside but I feel like it should be better.

Anyone want to join me??

Maybe I'm just in a phase again but

I love it when I listen to something that incorporates hip hop and another genre together. In high school, I remember being in this hugeeeeeee Fort minor/Linkin Park/Handsome Boy Modeling School phase and it really struck out to me because it practically mixed rock and hip hop together. (Btw, you may think I'm a nerd but I LOVE the lyrics in H!-Vl8tage. Look it up and you'll see what i mean.)

Reanimation was my favorite CD. <3 It was in constant repeat.

Anyways, the reason why I mention this is because I was watching ABDC the other day and I LOVED "Orquestra" by Quest (MYGOD. SO. HOT. AHHH.). It sent shivers up my spine and it seriously felt like an eyegasm+eargasm. Recently, I've been listening to other music, such as Paul Dateh and Jedi Mind Tricks and gosh...So amazing.

Man. It sure sucks to go back to SF by yourself when it's raining. *sigh*.

I want a panda hat ^^.

Damaged

I chose to hide myself because I don't want to appear vulnerable to you. You say that I shouldn't hide my emotions but at this rate, I see it as my way to deal with things and move on because once I do, I feel like it's going to be much worse than what I'm feeling.

But I don't think you really understand the whole situation.
Ever since last semester, I've been scared of karma; that what I did is going to hit me back hard. In my past relationship, I've been so used to be the person who was relatively stronger than my significant other. I was the one who always heard about complaints from him that I didn't spend enough time with him whenever I was busy with school work and extracurriculars. Towards the end, I distanced myself because not only did I know that we were going to be away from each other again, but also because he was being too needy for me so it got extremely annoying.
Because of that, it has ended up to being where we are now.
..and it scares me to think that I'm in his situation now.

I think i'm going to regret typing this up but I figured you should at least know that fact. After all, you don't want me to hide my emotions right?

So sorry.

TCM

I actually don't know why or when my interest in Chinese Medicine really started. To come to think of it, maybe it was when I started noticing the different types of soups and herbal concoctions that my grandmother or my mom used to make.
-This one would reduce hot air
-drink this and you will increase your appetite!
-drink this and you will get taller!

Yeah well, the last one apparently didn't really work out for me that much but it was just interesting to think of these things that weren't mentioned in Western medicine; where it seems to focus on the body as specified compartments and treating the body by only targeting the symptom In Chinese medicine, it compasses the body as whole, the concept of yin and yang and whether the body is in balance/harmony. TCM treats the body by diagnosing the source of the problem.When my dad got sick, he would take these herbs prescribed by a TCM practitioner in addition to the radiation and chemotherapy. These herbs, wrapped in a simple white sheet of paper consisted of the most random-est things; wood, leaves, and even a dead bee. Whether these herbs really worked by killing off the cancerous cells or help reduce the damaging effects of chemotherapy, it seemed like it was helping him significantly. I think it was at that point where I was really curious to see whether other cancerous patients knew of such a thing that could potentially assist them through out the process.
Since the beginning of elementary school, I've always had an interest in anything that was related to China. I remember always going to the library and specifically looking out for videos or books that would talk about Chinese New Year or the Lunar Festival because it encompassed their culture. It really made me proud to be Chinese, or rather an Asian, especially since I was practically one of the few, if not, only Asian girl in a school full of white people. As much as I hated moving to San Francisco back then, I enjoyed being immersed in a culture so rich. Maybe that's why I've become so 'fobby'.
That reminds me of this quiz that tested how 'Asian are you'.
http://www.yellowbridge.com/humor/kindofasian.php
What's interesting enough is that I've met pretty much all types of Asians that were enlisted on the site above, probably from simply growing up in SF and coming here.

And where do I belong to? Although I'd have some qualities enlisted in 'tab' i.e. I like sanrio, weigh less than 105 and LOVE (or at least used to) platform shoes (to make me taller of course XD).
I'd like to classify myself as fobulous. =)

Ever since I came to Berkeley, it sort of bothers me whenever I see or meet an Asian who has no idea of their what their culture is about. I've been so used to growing up around people who knew different kinds of Asian pop stars, sings, dramas, food and it's strange now to meet someone to doesn't know these things.

Okay yeah I'm going off tangent from what I originally wanted to talk about but now that I have to head off to dinner, I shall finish this thought later.

Step your game up.

Activating super-nerd mode...


NOW.

Until Wednesday: Only one Facebook viewing per day.
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Benzoic acid
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Acetophenone
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First lecture of the semester that I couldn't understand something.

Don't get me wrong. I didn't fall asleep but I just didn't know what the hell was going on towards the end. Everyone else around didn't get it either..

and for that..i give myself 6 out 7.. =

I hate synthesis with a passion.